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Creative Nonfiction | February 2013

Kindergarten Pick-Up

By Melanie Pappadis Faranello

It’s not a hug but a sideways shove into your legs, his Star Wars backpack knocking your arms instead, and he already has plans to play with Sully, he tells you this in one breath, your lips barely grazing the back of his hair before he runs away, up the hill, towards the playground behind the schoolyard. You do not know Sully, this new friend who chases your son up the hill and away from you. The Jedi on his pack, with his piercing stare and light saber, stares back, watches the distance widening.

From the bottom of the hill, you can see him swinging on the monkey bars, you pause, consider if he needs you there, but you know you must go forward, climb the hill; it is still your job, and you remember too well his smell, the doughy features of his face, how he curled into your chest when they placed him there like some kind of animal, tiny mouth opening like a cave, and something happens in this moment that carves you hollow, makes the scar tissue feel like weight inside your pelvis.

You must climb, climb that hill.

Too well the way his skin was damp and warm, how you could barely feel the weight of him wrapped in your arms, you long to taste his cheek but you know this would be weird and wonder would it be as sweet with newborn salt, skin that has yet to be exposed. You long to feel the purr of breath in that weightless hump of blankets.

You pant, climbing forward, up the endless hill, you heave and huff like a beast, like you are in labor, but you do not stop. At the top, you scan the play yard for your son; he could be any of them, all feet and shoes and thin-muscled arms swinging.

Beside you on the grass, his tossed backpack lies, the Jedi staring upwards at the sky.

He runs now, kicking up grass, tumbling in dirt, sweating through pores starting to sprout darkening strands of hair, and you retract in quiet awe at the power in his haunches, his leap, his growl, his burgeoning power at play; you are weightless at the sight of it, you wait to catch your breath, and you bear down firmly to hold your ground, to feel the roots beneath your feet, waiting for him to come back.

 

6 replies on “Kindergarten Pick-Up”

Harolyn Pappadissays:
February 11, 2013 at 6:30 am

Melanie’s beautifully written metaphor speaking about the miracle of birth and then the miracle of growing up as seen in a kindergardener is poignant. I enjoyed reading this piece and look forward to reading others of hers.

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Jennifer rosesays:
February 11, 2013 at 10:37 am

Beautiful!

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Kelly Siske-Dunworthsays:
February 11, 2013 at 1:49 pm

Your words always break my heart wide open. So beautifully written and heartbreakingly ttue.

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Gail Corradosays:
February 13, 2013 at 2:54 pm

This is a beautifully drawn picture for all the senses. I look forward to reading a lot more of Melanie’s work!

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adrianasays:
February 15, 2013 at 10:17 am

Tears in my eyes….I have the same feeling over and over about my three kids…snif

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Heathersays:
February 26, 2013 at 7:34 am

The birthing imagery is great, though so vivid it’s almost graphic and makes me uncomfortable. I’m sure that’s a good thing. Well done.

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